Ok, so the stress in my current life situation has caused me to lose it! Ever have a feeling/desire that doesn’t make sense? As I changed into my PJs for the night (at 8pm- go ahead, laugh yer butt off – but you’ll think of me some day when you do the same thing), I had this fleeting thought that I wish my husband and I could elope. We’ve been happily married for over 18 years, so I don’t know where the goofy thought came from. I grinned at myself and thought about how stupid and senseless that thought was, and then I began wondering why my brain came up with that. I think I know. Try to stay with me 🙂
So my honey came home last Friday at noon to spend half a day with us before leaving the next morning for a business trip, and as he packed some files and checked his laptop bag for all those things that it needs, he looked up at me and said, “I wish you were going with me.” as I walked by with a stack of laundry to put away. I stopped and replied that I would love to go, and I saw that look in his eyes that tells me he’s cooking up something in his head. He then told me that he had hated to ask his mom to come stay with the kids for this trip because she had moved recently, but that she might just want a break, and that he was just going to call and see. I went back to the laundry and waited to see what he’d work out. An hour later, he was leaving to drive an hour and a half one way to meet his step-dad and pick her up, and I was headed to soccer practice with our daughter and a billion things that needed to be done running through my fuzzy brain. I was both thrilled and overwhelmed. I couldn’t leave my house a mess, and I couldn’t leave my daughter at her first practice to go home and work, either. I used the hour to organize in my brain what actually needed doing and what could wait. After practice, I went home and packed, cleaned bathrooms and did laundry until I went to bed. I made sure to pack a bag of things to do while honey was at work…my Nintendo DS, a James Michener I’ve been creeping through for a year (while stopping to read shorter works), my bible, several images and my carving stuff to work on a letterbox series I want to finish by the end of the month. That should keep me busy 😀
We drove two days one way (6+ hours each day) to stay three nights and then drive back. I was sooooo pooped. We were both surprised at what the trip took out of me. I felt old. And it sucked! It was worth it, though. We had lots of great talk time in the truck, grown up dinner dates and no kids down the hall at bedtime 🙂 It’s so great to leave behind all my daily grind and get to reconnect with my love.
So I ran away from my problems, so to speak. It works for me. I put off starting school with K for a week, missed the whole three day drama of Freshman Transition and didn’t have to smell the dog or look at overdue cleaning jobs all day. I carved three of my 9-box series (3 were already done, so I’m getting excited). I didn’t read any Michener, but I did read James 🙂 I didn’t come any closer to beating Tetris again (I did it years ago on the original Nintendo). And I got to decide not to think about some things today, and put them off for tomorrow. (Miss Scarlett taught me well.) It was nice. And it made me want to elope with my honey. When we got married we were so young and naive and free. We could’ve lived on love alone (and did at times – that and a few potatoes!) And so I guess my brain remembers that enough to desire that whole emotional high once again. We sort of eloped, I suppose…since, technically we’re already married!
The moral of this story? Run away! Take your baby and run far, far, away and pretend that there’s nothing else – at least once in awhile. It’ll be good for all involved 🙂 Drive and drive until you’re too tired to remember your responsibilites and too weak to care whether you’re missing emails or phonecalls.
Yes, my honey had to work all day, every day we were there. But I’d do it again, anyway, ’cause it was worth it. I’m rested up now and back to normal, I think. Maybe my brain is still a little loopy…
I did get to find one letterbox on the trip. I’ll try and load the cool pics once I get them off the phone 🙂
Off to watch the Olympics – I’ve been told repeatedly that I’m missing them!