I just read my last post, and it doesn’t seem possible that it was from this fall. It seems like that was ages ago so much has happened. It is certainly time to get back into the habit of writing – I have missed it. I’ll attempt to fill in the almost six-month gap that I have managed to create.
We still have jelly, and frozen apples. They are being pulled from the pantry and freezer, respectively, as we need them, but there is still enough to last a while. The jelly is just as yummy and the apples are being used most often in Apple Cake. (Although I’ll probably be making Amish Friendship Bread for a while in place of the cake, until we get tired of that.)
School with my daughter has become much, much easier. I think she must have been going through a phase…or maybe it was me. But she doesn’t hesitate to come to me when she has finished her independent work or when she needs me. She has matured a lot in other ways, as well, and has taken to doing some of what needs to be done without being asked (like putting the clothes in the dryer if she is closer when it buzzes), and has a better attitude in general.
The biggest change around here is that I am going to school myself full-time now. It’s a long story, so you may want to grab a snack 😉 I didn’t finish college the first time around, and I didn’t think I’d ever go back. For almost 20 years, I had not thought of one thing that I was interested enough to want to get a degree in and work at every day. Since my oldest started middle school (he’s in 10th grade now), I’ve been praying from time to time that God would give me direction, because for the first time, I fully realized and accepted that I would not be homeschooling forever, and would not feel fulfilled staying home after that phase of my life ended. At first, I thought that I would volunteer full-time, either in one place, or several places, on different days. This plan seemed like it may be right for the next year or so, as I came upon many places that I would like to invest in.
It was sometime during October that I feel like God revealed to me his plan for me. He made me realize that I have always been interested in food and health, and how food affects health and how food can make health issues worse, cause them, or help manage them. I have always taken a multi-vitamin and other supplements, given them to my children, modified recipes to make them healthier, and just generally been interested in diet. He revealed to me through my own high blood pressure and family members’ health issues that peoples lives can really be affected by the way they eat. So I am working toward a degree in Dietetics! It can’t be my plan, because I would never have thought of it myself, even though in retrospect, I remember my sister jokingly saying once, “You should be a Dietician.” when I was casually suggesting to my mom that she could make a recipe much healthier with a few changes. I would also have never had the confidence to enroll in college again. My first go at that was such a nightmare. I was young. There just seemed to be so much pressure to declare a major – and nothing interested me that much! I was trying desperately to take the advice of my advisor, and just take “basic” classes until I figured out what I was interested in, but I got a “C” on an English II paper, and it just simply sunk me like an anvil in a pool. I had never received a “C” in writing! And I couldn’t handle it. I dropped out of every class – unofficially, which means my GPA is laughable.
After that, feeling pressured to do something, I went to cosmetology school. I liked playing around with it, with friends and family, but I knew pretty early on that I was not going to do it for long. I stuck with it about 2/3 the way through, and got put on bedrest early in pregnancy and had to quit. Frankly, it was a relief, because it gave me an excuse to quit that I didn’t have to feel guilty about. My biggest problem was that I was trying to please others instead of following my path, and I didn’t have the relationship with God then that I have now, so I didn’t know how He could direct me if I’d just ask.
Homeschooling was His plan, too – I had never heard of it when He placed it in my path as an option, and compelled me to do it. I have been oh so content following His lead since then, because He was very, very spot on! I have never doubted for a moment that I was supposed to home- school.
I feel that way about this now, too. It just amazes me that He didn’t reveal it to me until it was time…I’d have messed that up somehow, I’m sure, probably by either trying to take a few classes to “get started” before His timing came, or by chickening out totally and not going through with it. As soon as I was sure that I was hearing God right, I sent for my old transcript (15 hours I won’t have to do over) and applied for admission. When I got my transcript in the mail and my acceptance letter, I immediately made an appointment with an advisor, applied for a student loan and enrolled full-time.
The week before classes started, I felt a bit panicky about having a full class load and wondered if that was a mistake that I’d regret. Of course, I alternately prayed and cried and believed. But 5 weeks in, it is going very well. I’m keeping up, doing well, and enjoying it very much. Some days I still feel a little overwhelmed, but my super-hero family kicks in and does some of the non-school stuff that’s contributing to my insanity and all comes back to a balance 😉
It’s about time to pick up my daughter, and that’s about as thorough an update as I can manage tonight.